Saturday, December 22, 2007

Sunday Scribblings

Holiday Memories

There are a ton of memories from the holidays that I could share....a lot of heart warming stories of family and full bellies....

But this year, my memory of the holidays will be different.....this year, I will have to remember that not only is it the day of the Birth of Christ.....but it is also the day of death of my sister.

December 25th is changed forever for me now. I will always have great memories and good times on Christmas Day....but they will be a little more bittersweet now...

Jenny,

I miss you so much everyday...and because we hadn't seen each other in so long before you passed, I can almost imagine that you're still just in North Bay, doing your thing, living your life. But then I snap back to reality and remember that I will never, ever answer the phone again and hear you answering back, "Hey, Brat!".

I hope that you have a great Christmas this year....the best you ever had. I will be thinking about you all day...and I will visit you and Dad at the cemetary at some point just to say hi...I know you're not really there but it gives me a place to go in private and talk to "nothing". I know you're both there listening and that brings me more comfort than you know.

Wherever you are.....Merry Christmas big sister....we all love and miss you so very much.

Love, Brat.

7 comments:

Bohemian Mom said...

Ohhh...nicely written.
I love the cemetary. Not in a morbid way, but like you said, in a sort of quiet and private place to grieve.
It's very healing, and I believe it helps to have this specific spot that "represents" a place where we can visit our loved ones.

Yes, Christmas will be different for you and will hold a special meaning for you from this day on.

Beautiful post. I'm sure she knows she's remembered and missed.

sandierpastures said...

Your Christmasses from now on would surely be different. How sad that she passed away on Christmas day.

Merry Christmas to you. This was a beautiful post.

Linda said...

This brought a lump to my throat and warmed my heart at the same time. Especially since you are carrying life inside you! What a perfect way to honor your sister!

Autumn said...

So sorry about your sister. We lost my dad three years ago and laid him to rest on xmas eve. It will never be the same...my heart goes out to you.

Mich said...

Sending you magical wishes for Christmas.

love
mich
x.

tumblewords said...

How sad. It's true that each Christmas is different, for different reasons...but it's never the same.

kathyann said...

I really feel your pain,this is one of the worsed times for this horrible thing to happen!
My dad died at 6.20 on Christmas morning ,I never got to say goodbye and that is the one thing that I can't seem to get away from. My youngest daughter was one on 2nd January and my dad was buried the next day. As each Christmas comes round I try to pick myself up and do all the usual happy things and carry on for the sake of the children when in all honesty I am hurting inside.My daughter will be 16 this time and she will never see her grandad but she knows all about him and what a kind man he was.I know you too will be hurting but your sister would want you to take care of yourself and I'm sure she will be with you when you have your baby and for many years to come .Take care love from Kathyann at meg's mum's muffins